I do not think I could feel any more depressed right now. The amount of nothing to do has just made me think and feel like crap. And even when there's something to do its usually crap and I don't want to do it. But the whole time this makes me feel like a completely ungrateful little bitch because it's not like my family is trying to make me feel shit, rather the opposite and so far they feel that their efforts have gone unappreciated. I do appreciate their efforts, its just as much as I want them to, they haven't worked.
And as I sit here right now, with some kind of raging growing pain in my leg, hoping that I am still actually growing, I don't feel so bad anymore. I wrote what I said in the previous paragraph prior to telling myself to cheer the fuck up and stop being such a little twat. Regardless, I am missing my friends imensly though. My friends are such a big part of my life whenever I have to leave them or are not able to talk to them or see them I do feel like a part of me is missing.
Today I did feel generally low. We went to this thing called "Village d'un mil" which translates to village of the first millenium, basically it was an archeological site where a village was found from the first millenium, hence the name. They showed all the ruins of what would of been the hut like living areas, then they'd reconstructed some of the buildings to give you an idea about what it would of been like. All in all, the whole experiance was pretty ropey, there was tarpaulin on the roof of one of the huts, and one of the huts was full of watering cans. However it was something to do, maybe not the most exciting of things but when your in the middle of nowhere then it sounds like a not so bad idea.
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