Day 17: hmmmm :( -but otherwise :)

I've had such a mixed day today. But I think it really proved how you can't trust anyone or anything, there's nothing anyone can do to stop themselves from having placed trust in the wrong person, no matter how well they know them. It all depends on that one person not abusing another persons trust, once they have abused it, then trust is a frail thing, and will most definitely never be the same. It's so irreparable, yet so goddamned important. Without it doing simple things becomes difficult, let alone more complex things. There never seems to be a point where you can trust someone entirely...

Rant over. I'm trying not to put a downer on everything but the world can be a shitty place. After this rather dark and unfortunate morning, I went into Town to go meet up with my friend. This is my lovely articulate friend just so you all know. With my new found open-mindedness towards tea we went to this tea rooms, sounds kinda crappy, but it was really cool. It was just full of all these crazy oriental teas which I'd never heard of in my short miserable existence. So we got this tea with some eccentric name, although if I'm 100% honest, tasted like weak normal tea with out the milk... But the best part was probably watching the little bud thing unfold.

Basically, you get this pot of boiling water, then they put this little parcel of tea leaves into the pot and if you wait it almost blossoms... When it does this flower comes out, it was possibly the coolest thing ever. Never been so impressed...

At the moment I'm kind of in the middle of everything. I want to be happy because I am, but I feel like I don't deserve to be when other people have it worse off... Massive amounts of guilt. On the bright side,  I've only thrown up once today... If you could call that an achievement...